thats me??

412cf10fc52d21fed57792d16aa0a32c_web.jpg but sometimes i wished the wouldnt coz then i would be dead already and they wouldnt be sad it would make the things much easier so i m still wandering through this world dont know what the meaning of this may be i ll risk it one time may be i ll risk it that they all hate me but then i ll hope that they all can forgive me may be not the day after a month after or a year after but i hope they can forgive me in the future if i m not with them anymore..... a ghost which only whishes to die since a long time finally i found a way to die i have to be happy now my dreams could cometrue i will die but i m not happy i cant make the ppl who understand me who cares abt me who can see me me a ghost wandering through the world i cant make them sad my friends my family i dont want to make then sad i cant risk it i know they care about me hi i m jullly 23 years old half sick girl i dont want anything from life everything is over and finished i m wondering through the world i see the things with others eyes now the whole world look beautifuller than before. but i m not part of this world i dont know why but i dont feel happy i dont feel lucky and i dont feel alive i m feeling like wondering through the world as a ghost